3/15/10

my mind is overflowing with goo






I am totally in awe of fireflies. I grew up in the city and no luxury of seeing them a lot. The closest I got near insects would be with my daily encounters with roaches and some nights filled with the cries of crickets. I wasn't sure what draws me to a common firefly but I can say that it has a pretty huge impact because 'til now I'm still loving them.

When I was like maybe 5 or 6, I was too fascinated with fireflies that I had an intense desire to be one of them--yea, I dreamt of becoming a real firefly. So what I did, I would stuff my mouth with all sorts of food, go to my room, snuggle in a warm blanket and doze off truly believing that when I wake up from my metamorphosis I'll be a full-grown male firefly. Morning come and I'll be devastated to find out that I still am myself. The funny thing is that doesn't stop me. Every night, I'll do the same thing and the morning after, I'll wake up and I'll be broken-hearted again. Poor me, my young heart was dreaming big dreams and daily I face the dream-crushing reality that it's not gonna happen.



At 21, I'm still fascinated with the warm yellow light of male fireflies. I have only seen two of them in my entire life, one in Antipolo and one in CamSur and yet they're allure even made me decide one day that I wanted to buy a mango plantation. One friend of mine said that when a fireflies swarm a mango tree, the scene will always look too beautiful for one's eye.

I'm still on the lookout for the perfect-looking and perfect-fitting firefly wing on costume shops. I haven't got any luck in my search because I don't think they mass-produce for kids-at-heart. I maybe petite and all but whenever I try one of them wings it never fails to look odd.

Due to watching some romantic flicks, I too wanted to slow dance under the lover's sky surrounded by a million glowing male fireflies near a lake.


All this firefly talk intensifies my desire to watch the Grave of the Fireflies.


Fireflies lyrics
Songwriters: Young, Adam;

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

Finally,
I am writin' this entry solely because I wasn't able to go
to the Owl City Free Concert at Trinoma.
Boo hoo!




*all photos courtesy of Flickr.com

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